Full Moon in Taurus Lunar Eclipse: An Intuitive and Personal Enquiry

in lumine tuo videbimus lumen

“In your light we see the light.”

Mario Rapisardi -Lucifer

Mario Rapisardi -Lucifer

A Moon Uranus conjunction can feel unsettling; the outer planet of awakening and liberation dislodges us from our habituated emotional patterns- patterns that may have been installed in us from birth. The Moon also relates to the unconscious mind and points to beliefs and perceptions that have developed as a result of these patterns. It goes without saying that these thought processes have to an extent been conditioned and passed down through our ancestral lines.

We like what we like and do what we do until our consciousness demands expansion and we learn to release learned ways of being- ways that once protected but now stifle and cause suffering. Uranus’ electric lightning bolts send currents of energy through our system jolting outmoded and stagnant habits while facilitating new processes – not always comfortable!

The danger here is that we become dislodged from our earthly and embodied connection, the soil from which we are born and the kinship in which we were raised. Under this influence we can eastly become the maverick, the radical, or the lone wolf crusading for a cause or a freedom at the cost of our common humanity and need for earthly connection.

On this full moon, Uranus is making its final square with Saturn, lord of time, karma, and physical and social laws. This transit can bring unexpected changes that have not been asked for, or else cause difficulty in initiating change that we do want. What appears at first to be a restriction however may in the end be a blessing as things are put in place to facilitate our evolution. Saturn is a hard task master but in his tough love we are primed to be responsible, mature adults creating structures and containers that enable our soul’s expression in the world. Saturn and Capricorn are connected to bringing light into the material world, even the darkest places.

The tension I sit with personally on this full moon is how to break free from restrictive patterns and toxic processes inherited from intergenerational trauma, while remaining connected to my ancestral lineage. We incarnate into the families and communities that we do for a reason. How do we make a stance for who we truly are while keeping the love light flowing. Often this tension is so great that we break away from our families of origin in the belief that we can free ourselves, though in doing so we cut ourselves off at the root.

Recently I have been working with people who are walking this line in a bid to heal their deepest wounds. Words like “entity “and “curse” are not out of place in a shamanic session. While that could sound a bit scary, opening the space for deeper enquiry into the origins of these experiences sheds much light. We cannot kill our demons it seems; instead allowing them to lead us back to the tender root of dislocation is where the soul weaving happens.

In this full moon chart, there is an aspect pattern known as a Lucifer Rectangle which is a Mystic Rectangle occurring in the signs of Pisces, Virgo, Taurus, and Scorpio.

  • Sun 16° Scorpio
  • Ceres 16° Virgo
  • Moon/Uranus 16° Taurus
  • Nessus 13° Pisces. Neptune 22° Pisces

With the planets and asteroids involved I feel the potential of this lunar eclipse is healing the ancestral, and in particular mother line. Breaking free from binding negative emotional and lunar influences offers the ability for re-parenting, or re-mothering, accommodating our unique spiritual selves and still allowing for social and kindred acceptance. How do we show up in our families and communities as we truly are on a soul level.

I see this as a time to reclaim the dimensions of power and light that exist on the levels of soul and spirit that want to be channelled through the physical plane.

Lucifer may be the adversary or the Light Bringer. In freeing himself according to his own nature and spiritual essence he transgresses the family unit (in his case, God the father and the holy family). He dares to break free and in so doing becomes a light in the dark. In Christian mythology, anchored in duality, Lucifer is seen as the bad guy who disobeyed God- though he may also be the redeemer. Uranus and Lucifer are on the same team- both are interested in your awakening and liberation… though the old God Saturn must be paid his dues.

One final comment about the full moon chart is that asteroid Lucifer is conjunct Pholus in early Capricorn which I feel speaks to the human family soul, light, or medicine having been thwarted throughout the generations; Capricorn is involved in the processes of light descending into the physical world. In the people I work with we often find that once the family wound has been recognised and the “entity” has been seen for what it is, the light of the line can shine through.

During, and in the aftermath of this lunar eclipse we have an opportunity to quieten the overplayed tape recording of outmoded patterns, beliefs and stories and open ourselves to receive our light, facilitated by Uranus… just remember to stay grounded and connected.

I am available for astrology consultations exploring these dynamics in your chart. I am also available for Shamanic healing sessions.

Libra New Moon, September 2022: The Wasteland & the Fisher King

Image: Venus setting fire to the castle where the Rose is imprisoned in the medieval French romance ‘Roman de la Rose’

New Moon in Libra Sunday 25 September at 22.54 BST

During the past two weeks while much attention has been on the Royal House of Windsor and the British Monarchy, I have been looking at the astrology charts of some key royals and royal events.

The archetype of the King and Queen, their symbolic and literal meaning and how it connects with modern Britain has fired some interesting questions. Astrology offers clues about the inner life of the Royal family- a powerful institution that operates far beyond either the individuals or the structures that form it.

The question of whether Charles III may be a Fisher King has breathed new life into the Grail myth. Intimately bound with Britain and the Arthurian legends, the magical quest for the ‘Sangreal’ (blood royal) flows through time with the promise of renewal.

Healing comes when a young knight asks the sick king the correct question, “what ails thee?”

In astrology the Centaur Chiron, half human, half horse has attributes that have been paralleled with the Fisher King… a wound that does not heal, an element of sacrifice, acceptance of one’s destiny, and finally redemption.

Chiron, who is also known as the wounded healer suffers but holds the key to renewal. In the chart of the now king, Chiron is strong at 28 Scorpio inconjunct the Moon at 0 Taurus (with the lunar North node at 3 Taurus). Chiron is also inconjunct Uranus at 29 Gemini creating an aspect pattern known as Yod- the finger of God-or the finger of fate.

Charles’ Sun is conjunct Chiron strengthening the ‘chirotic’ signature and hallmark of a possible Fisher King.

The motif of the Fisher King, expressed through Chiron, is even more pronounced in the chart of Prince William, the now Prince of Wales. With a Yod pointing to Chiron, William also bears the signature of a Fisher King… particularly interesting is his Chiron exactly conjunct Venus at 25 Taurus.

In the Grail myth, inappropriate or disrespectful treatment of the feminine festers at the core of the disease that pervades the land; this is expressed in the brutal treatment of the Maidens of the Wells in Chrétien de Troyes, ‘The Elucidation’.

While in Charles’ chart Chiron conjunct the Sun points to a wound of the self and to the masculine, in William’s chart the close Chiron Venus conjunction highlights the wounded feminine or loss of the feminine. This theme is painfully highlighted in Prince William’s life through the death of his mother, Diana on 31st August 1997.

As the current King (and his heir) prepare to shape the future of Britain and the third Carolean era, the woman who connects them, Princess Diana of Wales, dead for 25 years does not rest easy.

The events of her death are chilling and mysterious and raises questions that many do not care to ask, and others do not care to answer.

Beneath the surface, in the subtleties of the collective psyche this mystery creates deep-seated unease causing a cognitive dissonance. Something is not right …

While the questions remain unasked and unanswered there is a disturbance in the field and the possibility for true restoration and renewal remains out of reach.

As we move into Venus ruled Libra season there is an opportunity to evaluate the information and facts however this cannot be done within the spheres of the exterior world; inner vision is needed. After all, the operations of the British Royal family are complex and not always as they appear.

In this new moon chart, there is a strong kite aspect pattern with Venus at the apex or release point. With a grand trine in earth the top of the kite is Neptune at 23 ° Pisces (which is conjunct asteroid Diana at 20 ° Pisces).

Pisces – the fish- theme has been integral to recent events in the royal mythopoesis not least because Charles became king around the time of the Pisces full moon.

Neptune ruler of Pisces in opposition to Venus in a kite configuration at the seed moment of the new lunar cycle feels important and timely especially as it coincides with the Sun’s ingress into Libra where the scales of justice weigh the heart of the matter.

I feel this is a turning point.

The kite pattern is also present in Diana’s chart with a grand trine in water with Chiron as the release point and Pluto the transformer as the active opposing agent in earth (Virgo).

Chiron runs through the charts of the royals like a (potential) sacred stream watering the Wasteland where the earth has become too dry and arid from generations of patriarchal tradition. It shows the wound and the antidote. While the maidens of the well are captive in the castle of the shadow kings, the soul of the land and its people suffer.

Diana’s Chiron at 6 ° Pisces on the release point of the kite, transformed by Pluto- death- is a story of sacrifice on many levels but was not in vain. Who could help but think of Diana at the passing of the old Queen? Her spirit lives on stubbornly refusing to be silenced in death just as in life.

In her chart asteroid Diana- the Moon goddess- is conjunct Neptune which shows up prominently repeatedly in the royal mythos.

Neptune has an illusionary, smoke and mirrors quality where things are not as they appear, and the fairy-tale belies a darker truth. Diana known as the ‘Fairy-tale Princess’ was unable or unwilling to sustain the illusion. Also known as ‘England’s Rose’, Diana once radiant and fresh withered and died in the foul air that surrounded her.

The rose is a symbol of the sacred feminine which is different to the sovereign feminine within patriarchal institutions. While the rose is withered, and the wells are dry the Grail is not found, and the land lies in waste.

In Need of a Little Sobering? Welcome Virgo.

Image~ Virgo, illumination from an Italian book of hours, c. 1475; courtesy of the Pierpont Morgan Library, New York.

Image~ Virgo, illumination from an Italian book of hours, c. 1475; courtesy of the Pierpont Morgan Library, New York.

After the bold flamboyance, creativity, and well, maybe a touch of Leo hubris, the Sun enters Virgo on 23 August (UK).

Maybe we explored being in the spotlight more than usual, or else unleashed a new wave of creativity during Leo season, and now we are being called to discern- what from those experiences can we take forward as we ground the creative buzz into a practical reality. Self-interest alone will not cut it; Virgo wants to know if our creative and individual zest is of service to the collective.

Virgo asks- how can we synthesize the rampant energies of Leo into a workable form, sound enough to withstand the conditions of the material world, and legitimate enough to have credibility.

One task of Virgo is to cut the wheat from the chaff- what at this stage holds up to scrutiny and what still needs time to bake in the alchemical alembic.

Virgo finds her fullest expression in service to the whole, a duty She is able to sustain through the condition of self sovereignty- she is the Virgin, after all- whole unto herself; Virgo contains the energy within until She consciously chooses how to direct it. With scrupulous discernment She avoids energy wasting whether ideas, emotions, people, or any frivolity that does not serve Her goal or will not yield a tangible crop.

Ruler of the sixth house, Virgo is also involved with the health and wellbeing of the physical planes including the human body, and the body of Gaia. Routines, practices, rituals, and systems that facilitate the merging of spirit and matter in realistic and well-functioning ways is the work of Virgo.

Holding the chaff of wheat, She knows the secret of regeneration.

The shadow side of Virgo is control and an exacting nature that can sometimes inhibit the free flow of emotions; there can be a tendency to over-analyse and nit-pick. Virgo can be a little detached as at this stage we have not yet turned our attention and energy to union with others.

The glyph for Virgo and Scorpio is similar with the M of matter (Mother) turned inward for Virgo and outward for Scorpio; energy/libido is contained within (Virgo) as in the virgin archetype or shared (Scorpio), where unconscious forces loosen control. Libra, the sign in between balances these polarities as we learn the art of relationship.

So now that we are infused with creativity and a sense of what wants to be birthed through us into the world, it is time to reckon with Virgo who will ask us to be accountable, practical, and realistic in our endeavours. Ideas without foundation or motivated from hubris or a desire to be seen for the sake of being seen will not hold up in Virgo’s court. She wants to know, will there be a harvest next year… and will it benefit all.

Virgo’s medicine is particularly relevant now as we sit uneasily between the New Age and Tradition, between information diluted through endless disembodied repetitions on platforms like social media, and a perennial wisdom that stands the test of time through all ages. Virgo may be viewed then as a gnostic messenger, synthesizing and grounding spiritual energies through matter as direct and embodied experience.

Transiting Venus on the South Lunar Node: The State of Independence.

William Holman Hunt 'The Awakening Conscience'.

William Holman Hunt ‘The Awakening Conscience’.

When Venus transits the South node, it may be a time when a relationship ends however it could also be that expectations around relationships more generally are reviewed. I have this transit happening now and for myself, I recognise that it is not so much about letting go of a particular relationship but an outmoded attachment style.

When I consider the early conditioning that I received around intimate partnering I see that there were a lot of unhealthy factors involved- my role models were not particularly relationship conscious, not only in my family but also in my community and in the wider collective… all those co-dependent pop songs! Dysfunctional messages about what a relationship is, how it should operate, the role of women, the role of men, and most insidiously of all the privacy, silence and ‘behind closed doors’ attitude that prevailed made for one hell of a toxic soup.

These days my journey to liberate myself from negative programming is releasing the need to engage in unhealthy situations. What strikes me is how limiting relationships can be when the people involved act out of their unhealed trauma, or shadow. Although I also recognize that personal growth can come from experiencing these kinds of relationships or ‘woundships,’ and that even ‘bad’ or toxic relationships can be a pathway to liberation and awakening when we cultivate enough self value and self-love… to let them go!

Our relationship patterns run deep and becoming more informed about attachment styles, trauma bonds, and co-dependency allows for the potential to move away from destructive or limiting situations. As this happens, we might also find that so much of our lives are entwined with these patterns, for example we stay in abusive situations because our financial security is bound in it, or else the relationship supports our victim story, or reinforces false beliefs connected to our self-esteem and self-value.

Early family dynamics that are not made conscious will repeat ad infinitum in our adult relationships.

These formative experiences when left unacknowledged seep into our intimate partnerships, friendships, work situations, and in fact all inter-personal relationships because the common denominator is us, and that is where the transformation needs to happen. There are a lot of podcasts, books, talks, seminars, and general information about narcissistic, and abusive relationships and while it is good that the ‘behind closed doors’ mentally is breaking down there is also a danger of continuing to project our inner wounding onto those we perceive as having hurt us. They may well have hurt us however the continued projection keeps us in a victim stance and denies the possibility for true inner work.

As Venus transits my south node, I am letting go of old and entrenched patterns and beliefs about myself and myself in relationship, not just in intimate partnership but with the world and its systems… and dare I say illusions. So much of what I consumed was not of my truth, and I allowed myself- because I did not have the necessary tools, or self gnosis- to participate in toxic and self-defeating situations.

Any planets in aspect to Venus as she transits the south node will give a fuller picture of what is being let go of. For example, Venus is currently in a trine aspect with my Mars Chiron conjunction. This speaks directly to an inner shift where I am changing my relationship with the wounded (Chiron) masculine (Mars) so that the wounded masculine becomes the healthy masculine – an ally not an enemy. This transmutation is facilitated by Chiron and the Chiron return through which I have just moved; it is an inner change where I am developing a new relationship with my animus or inner man, and the shift is also reflected in my outer relationships with men.

In forming a new relationship with the masculine principle, it is not only my partnerships that are transformed but also my relationship with work, money, commitment, focus, boundaries, assertiveness, strength, courage, and other qualities that while are not exclusively masculine are expressed in a particular way through the masculine. In connecting with these things in myself I do not have to assign them to the men in my life and then get annoyed when they fall short… which inevitably, if the relationship with my inner man is unbalanced, they will.

That said I value and cherish the potential for beautiful union where each partner is committed to owning themselves and taking responsibility for their own soul.

A Portal to Meet With the Gods: Sourcing Light.

Mercury by Evelyn de Morgan1870-1873

Mercury by Evelyn de Morgan 1870-1873

Gods are personifications of unconscious contents, for they reveal themselves to us through the unconscious activity of the psyche. 

~Carl Jung, CW 11, p.163.

I am loving the ‘Sourcing Light’ readings that I am currently offering; there is a certain alchemy that happens between the moment, the chart, myself, the client, and what is rising in the collective.

Before the session I explore the chart, examining in the first instance the traditional planets, angles, aspects, etc., and based on that I begin a kind of ‘tracking’; I get a sense of what wants to be included… I listen.

Given that there are over two thousand asteroids- not to mention the Kuiper Belt Objects- there is no way to engage the mind or left brain alone, what is needed is intuition and an ‘imaginal enquiry’. It is a deeply satisfying and exciting process- a bit like playing the hot-cold game with the chart; I can feel when something is relevant or not and then like a ‘join dot’ the picture begins to emerge, and the chart speaks. Obviously, this is stronger sometimes than others though the chart always seems to offer what is needed in the moment.

Sourcing Light sessions are particularly dynamic as it involves tracking power.

The space that the client and I create expands to include the liminal, engaging both left and right brain thinking that allows for creative exploration. There is a certain feeling that rises when an archetype ‘speaks’, is witnessed, and interpreted… a bridge is formed between the unconscious or subconscious psyche and the conscious mind. Even if there is no time to fully explore the meaning, a seed has been planted that can be watered, or kept for a future time when the conditions are ripe, the soil is fertile, and the soul is ready.

Always in this process I am learning too; it is a beautiful reciprocation. Sometimes I discover a new archetype… or it discovers me… or else I get a deeper sense of an archetype I have already worked with.

Often my client shares something that has meaning beyond their personal experience that ripples out beyond the space, shining a light on the collective… a golden thread.

Working in this liminal space is vast -a portal that dissolves time and space and opens multi-dimensional, or circular perception… very different to how most of us are taught to think. It allows for feeling, intuition, and magic and with that we begin to remember the parts of ourselves that have been overlayed or banished because they are considered irrelevant in our modern world, or else they are threatening because they are powerful.

The beauty of working with the asteroids is that through their mythology they seem to reflect the split off parts of ourselves, the fragmentations that have become dissociated from the conscious mind and yet continue to exert power and influence in our lives.

Some people believe that the asteroid belt was once a planet that was broken into many pieces as a result of a collision… some believe this planet was Ceres, the Great Mother. Are we reweaving our connection to the Mother through the asteroid gods and goddesses?

Even farther in our solar system, the first Kuiper Belt Object (KBO) was discovered in 1992- Pluto and Charon which were discovered earlier are also in the Kuiper Belt though at the time of their discovery, the KB was thought to be a repository for periodic comets. Since its discovery, the number of known KBOs has increased to thousands. That these bodies are beginning to materialise in human consciousness symbolically reflects discoveries in inner space… as within so without.

In a recent “Sourcing Light” session I worked with a woman who had a strong Makemake in her chart; Makemake is a plutoid in the Kuiper Belt and is named after the Easter Island god of humanity and connectedness. In astrology Makemake is associated with knowledge of the natural world, the need for its preservation, and right use of resources. This awareness does not arise from a purely scientific perspective but as a recognition of the Earth as a sentient being, a spirit infused organism, part of the cosmos, and the world soul from which we are not separate.

Makemake points to Earth Wisdom and incorporates ancient, and indigenous Earth based consciousness, a wisdom that we desperately need to bring to bring back online.

Also prominent in my client’s chart is Haumea, another KBO, named after the Hawaiian goddess of childbirth who is connected to the deepest secrets of regeneration and renewal. She births from parts of her body other than her womb- from her head, thighs and other limbs thus suggesting that she hold the key to shamanic wisdom of cellular regeneration… again, deeply needed knowledge in this time of bio- chemical and pharmaceutical overuse.

How these archetypes spoke in my client’s chart was enlightening for us both.

The gods attempt to communicate with us in infinite ways; astrology is a wonderful portal in which if we are willing to step into the mirror, beyond the confines of the rational mind and meet them halfway, we are gifted their message… if it is part of our soul’s calling, we may also be infused with their vibration, and encouraged to express it in the world.

Talking of messages from the gods, Mercury who is the ultimate messenger of the gods and who is pictured above, is today making a trine with Uranus, expanding our mind, and encouraging less restrictive, more enlightened modes of communication. The north node, our collective density is also involved in this aspect.

Venus’ Ingress into Leo: From the Temple of the Heart All Are Warmed By the Sun.

Venus enters leoThe full Moon in Aquarius, Venus’ Ingress into Leo, and the Assumption of Mary all occur over a few days (now). It is a time when solar feminine power is expressed. This multi- event opens a portal, an invitation to connect with our inner light generated from the celestial Sun.

Symbolically Venus in Leo energy is contained within the myth of the goddess Cybele who is known as the Magna Mater “Great Mother”.

Ishtar is also associated with the Lion; the entrance of Ishtar’s Gate, adorned with ornate lions and bordered with rosettes symbolise Her role as a fertility goddess.

Fertility as it relates to solar energy has a different quality than lunar energy- it is a conscious force. In the same way, Venus as Morning Star has a different expression than Venus as Evening Star.

Venus in Leo is the generative active feminine who dons her golden crown from which rays of illumination and love shine upon all who come in contact with her.

This is the feminine who in herself is a generating power no longer only reflecting the light of the Sun as a lunar consort but instead claiming and embodying it as her own authority.

In its positive polarity Leo is transmitted through the Temple of the Heart and affects the collective in positive ways.

There is a caution however that without balancing Leo with the polar Aquarian energies the King can become over inflated and self-interested leading to the ruin of his dominion when he is cut off from his inner Sun and creative fire. The danger here is that the cut off masculine covets feminine energy sometimes in transgressive ways- this leads to the Wasteland and is at the heart of the Grail mysteries.

Containing one’s solar energy, expressing it appropriately, and protecting it when necessary is important work on the path.

This time is about the feminine principle actively taking her place in creating a new vision through the power of her heart, self-authority, and inner light.

Full Moon in Aquarius: Black Madonna- Queen of Heaven and Earth.

The Black Madonna of Chartres Cathedral.

The Black Madonna of Chartres Cathedral.

The full Moon on Friday 12th August at 02.36 GMT at 19 Aquarius 21’ is the final supermoon of the year…the moon whispers her secrets in our ear as she comes in close to the Earth.

Carried on the wings of Mary as She ascends onto Her Heavenly throne (The Assumption of Mary, 15th August) the message is one of peace.

Something has been accomplished in the realm of spirit even while here on the human realm we may still be catching up.

The sabian symbol for the lunar degree is PHASE 320: (AQUARIUS 20°): A LARGE WHITE DOVE BEARING A MESSAGE.

KEYNOTE: The answer of spiritual agencies to thorough, sustained, and victorious individual efforts.

The Divine is totally “present” in the heart of all true victories.

What the “message” is depends on the particular situation, but the white dove always signifies peace; at the very heart of this peace is the CERTIFICATION of individual worth and victory.

The Dove symbolism connects auspiciously to this lunar illumination and Assumption, as both Mary and Venus have associations with the Dove.

In the full Moon chart, asteroid Magdalena is at the apex of a Yod aspect pattern- Yod is the tenth letter of the Hebrew alphabet and is known as “The Finger of God”. There is a cosmically ordained fate at work.

Just as Mary the Virgin Mother is assumed into heaven an act which was officially recognised in 1950, Mary Magdalene once demonised as sinner and prostitute is rightfully acknowledge by the Catholic Church in 2016 by upgrading her memorial day to a feast day.

One of four Marian dogmas, The Assumption of the Virgin marks the journey of Mary, once her earthly life has finished and She is taken into heaven to be crowned “Queen of Heaven”.

The Assumption offers a living mythology and a symbolic revelation, it flows in and through us as a psychic reality regardless of the literality of the event which incites so much discussion in scholarly circles.

One way to approach the symbolism of the Assumption is:

The Virgin (whole unto herself) is lifted (Assumption) into the kingdom of Heaven (divine consciousness).

With the full Moon conjunct Saturn a degree of seriousnes is indicated; we are being guided to take responsibility for our habituated and unexamined behaviours, to break old limiting stories and look toward a self-sovereign state.

In a square with Uranus, the energy of change, liberation, and awakening is available even while there may be actual or perceived threats to our security- change is rarely smooth. However, the tension between Saturn and Uranus has been going throughout 2021 with the last exact hit on December 2021.

As we let go of old restrictive forms of security the possibility for a more authentic reality is possible.

The dark goddess offers guidance and support in walking the path to liberation which at times can be shattering; Dark Maid Lilith as priestess of the Dark Queen makes her presence felt next to Venus in a close conjunction on the full Moon and an exact conjunction on Assumption day.

Aspects of Lilith are also involved with the Magdalena Yod- Black Moon Lilith and Dark Moon Lilith (true) in a sextile with Kaali/Mars/Uranus, and both of these forming an inconjunction to Magdalena. The energy of Magadalena is realised through Lilith, and Kaali/Mars/Uranus.

Through developing inner vision to see the dark side of the Moon as it relates to an essential feminine, and with a harmonious and creative relationship with a powerful sacred masculine (Kaali/Mars/Uranus), the divine feminine may be realised and take her rightful place thus allowing for restoration.

We see this motif also in the Grail myth through the maidens of the Maidens of the Well who transgressed and degraded, are held captive by the shadow masculine. It is the sacred masculine that will redeem the maidens and restore the land.

The Black Madonna who is known as the Queen of Heaven and Earth, transcends duality as a generative (solar and lunar) feminine power who accords with the cycles of the Earth and the Cosmos guides us to come into harmony with nature within and without, which in reality is the same.

If Mother Mary is the Immaculate conception, Queen of Heaven, the Black Madonna is the fecund, fertile “Queen of Heaven and Earth” who is not separate from the darkness or light or from Earth or Heaven and has integrated the Sun & Moon. She is the bridge between distinctions of duality that have caused humanity to separate form their divine nature and in so doing have separated from the body of the living Mother and the divine nature within.

Introduced to Christianity through the Knights Templar, the Black Madonna shows that we cannot be reunited with Christ (the divine) without accepting that Christ is also within matter, in us and in the living Mother Earth. What has been cast out must also be included as God… I hear the beating wings of Lilith… and Lucifer.

The Lilith Venus conjunction over the period from the full Moon to Assumption points to the need to integrate the exiled feminine and the idealized feminine and to know a truer more essential version not just of the feminine but of humanity. It also points to a deeper awareness of the Earth as a divine sentient being.

As Jungian analyst Ean Begg writes, “The Black Virgin is a Christian phenomenon as well as a preservation of the ancient goddesses and compensates for the one-sided conscious attitudes of the age.”

Like the Hindu goddess Kali, the Black Madonna is the ever-loving Mother even while she destroys- she destroys illusions, untruths, and rampant egos hell bent on separation. Her destruction is divine in accordance with spiritual laws, not man-made laws that have become separated from these laws. She destroys in order to renew, and she asks us to look within and surrender what is not the truth of our being.

While Mars continues in a conjunction with the lunar north node, Uranus and asteroid Kaali, the male polarity is also being renewed.

A more authentic masculine and a more authentic feminine gives way to a sacred marriage in which the devastation we have witnessed between the sexes may finally lose sway. This will undoubtedly have a positive impact on the world and on the Earth- as within so without.

 In his book Mammon and the Black Goddess, Robert Graves says,

“The Black Goddess is so far hardly more than a word of hope whispered among the few who have served their apprenticeship to the White Goddess. She promises a new pacific bond between men and women, corresponding to final reality of love, in which the patriarchal marriage bond will fade away.”

Integrating Lilith, blending her with Venus, the idealised feminine is not easy for in that we face our shame, rage, and our own unacknowledged darkness, however it is the path of power. Once we have integrated and reckoned with the parts of ourselves that have acted unconsciously, they no longer control us, and we are freed from drinking from empty wells and from wastelands.

Mary Magdalene the woman who faced all of these things and still walked the path to wear her crown in heaven is testament to what is possible.

The Magdalene I feel is a living symbol of the Black Madonna, a beautiful integration of the human and divine- Queen of Heaven and Earth- an emanation of Sophia, the feminine face of God who merges with matter.

A Woman’s Way: Reintegrating the Lost feminine.

The Virgin and Child with Saint Anne and Saint John the Baptist by Leonardo da Vinci.

The Virgin and Child with Saint Anne and Saint John the Baptist by Leonardo da Vinci.

“One must stay close to feeling to know what one should do in this matter of having or not having children”.

~ Marie-Louise von Franz, A Woman’s Way.

The first time I realised that I was the last female in my matrilineal line I was in a room with a few other woman- dream lodge friends- who for the most part were in the same position. I was not the only one to have this realisation for the first time and the room fell silent for a time as each woman considered the emotional impact of that recognition.

That was in 2016, quite late in my life, although technically I could still have become a mother. I remember one of the first astrology readings I received in my early thirties when the astrologer told me that he did not rule out motherhood for me until around forty-seven. I was shocked, I could not imagine becoming a mother at forty-seven. I never became one at all.

Since that evening in Canterbury sitting with the other non- mothers reflecting of the meaning of that in our lives, I have thought a lot about why I did not have children. I have never felt sad or distressed about it; on a deep level I knew that it was not my role in this lifetime to be a mother. That is not to say there were not moments when I thought it would have been amazing to be a mother… and there were losses, but somehow my calling lay elsewhere.

In my astrology practice I work with women who are mothers and have deeply adored the experience; women who are mothers and not without some guilt have admitted they did not enjoy the experience; women who have regretted having children, and women who have regretted not having children. In these sessions we inevitably look at the mother-line to explore our own experience of being mothered; often the same patterns are repeated, or else there is a fracture down the line.

Women who feel they were unmothered sometimes endure a lot of soul questing on their journey to heal the emotional wounds of this abandonment, perceived or actual. Something else I have found is that it can be the case that women who do not continue the matrilineal line are in fact clearing the line, they are lineage bearers and lineage healers. In this case it is the end of the line for a particular cycle of trauma… though sometimes not without much personal cost.

Astrology has helped to me to connect with my own mother-line and has cultivated a deep sense of compassion in what has been a painful and traumatic relationship with my own mother… and her mother before her. Pholus and the centaurs in a chart can help to flesh out the story.

Getting to know my astrology has also imbued me with a sense of purpose as I realise that I am here for a reason other than mothering.Working with the asteroid goddesses provides psychological insight in grasping the journey of the soul as it relates to feminine patterns of consciousness and archetypes… there are many wonderful masculine archetypes/asteroids to help expand masculine consciousness and experience too.

The tradition planets reveal a huge amount of insight and information however working with the asteroids facilitate a reintegration of many of the feminine aspects and expressions that have been lost, repressed, curtailed, or otherwise marginalised and outright abandoned.

I see this time as a calling back of all the different expressions of the feminine. Women are wives, consorts, lovers, mothers, scholars, and CEO’s… and they are also medicine women, healers, holy women, sages, leaders, visionaries, warriors, tricksters, masters, sacred sexual priestesses, initiators, creatrixes, funerary priestesses, spirit doulas, and dream temple oracles to name a few.

Sometimes women who have taken on their ancestral karma and lineage clearing are just exhausted and need time to recover and regenerate. This may be especially so if the descent into the trauma of the line has resulted in illness caused by emotional or mental imbalances, or spiritual malaise.

There are many ways to birth and there are many ways to mother.

If you would like to explore this theme in your life, I am available for astrology session to explore how the feminine archetypes move in you and identify the ones that may be calling you toward a life that you have not yet seen.

Mars Meets Kaali: On Masculine Sexuality- Leo New Moon Part 2.

Image- John the Baptist 1602 by Caravaggio

Image- John the Baptist 1602 by Caravaggio

In the last new moon chart (28th July) Mars, Chiron, asteroid Kaali, and Uranus formed a stellium at the mid points of Taurus- Mars was at 15 degrees which is the point of the astrological Beltane.

To me this was a signifier that sexuality, and particularly masculine sexuality is being reviewed and transformed. This will continue through this lunar cycle and well beyond.

Mars is our sexuality and libido, passion, action, drive, and generative energy. Chiron, the wound is right next to Mars and highlights the wound associated with masculinity- in this relationship Chiron also offers healing and the potential for transmutation of wounded masculine energy.

Asteroid Kaali is a powerhouse supercharging anything she touches and is also connected with kundalini; Kali is the slayer of ego and all that no longer serves in aligning with our authentic selves. Asteroid Kaali points to radical transformation.

Uranus is also transformation and is connected with electricity, light, liberation, awakening… and kundalini.

That these powers are grouped together and have merged at the point of astrological Beltane is suggestive of a transformation occurring in our individual and collective psyche and bio-energy field around sexuality, particularly masculine sexuality…though in the new moon chart feminine sexuality is also highlighted in the Venus, Lilith, Hades conjunction.

Looking back at what was happening for you on or around the time of Beltane could shed some light on how these energies are operating in your life.

I am delighted that in my practice I am beginning to work with more men, and in my personal life I am meeting more men too, sometimes in random and magical ways. In these encounters it feels as if we have something to offer each other beyond the bounds of conventional man/woman relationship. These relationships are not sexual although there is a space, a very tentative and beautiful one that opens up for discussion around sexuality, embodiment, feelings, shadow, and accountability.

In the necessary shaking out of the old dusty blanket of human sexuality what has been hidden is revealed and it becomes clear that reality has been operating at two levels- what is shown and what is not. This splitting of reality creates a cognitive dissonance that shows up in the individual and collective psyche. It is this that is potentially being healed.

While a good dose of Uranian light circulates through old stagnant spaces, and Pluto prepares to dust himself down after his shift in Capricorn, things are opening out. As Pluto moves into airy Aquarius, we will experience a whole new vibe… maybe to do with the shadow side of technology.

As Pluto moved through Capricorn, we witnessed many esteemed persons exposed as leading a double life- the public persona and the private reality. Many of us have been disturbed to learn how the establishment prepared, and even protected the ground for these indiscretions to occur.

We have witnessed the MeToo campaign, had discussions around toxic masculinity, challenged pornography, or at least opened a discussion about the implications of porn, and at a very fundamental level have questioned our ideas, attitudes, and beliefs around gender.

Relationships that are abusive, raping (in whatever way you choose to see that), toxic, narcissistic, and exploitative continue to be explored in the wider social arena- this could enable a victim mentality or empower us to take responsibility for ourselves.

The kundalini is rising; the chains that have bound humanity particularly through sexuality are potentially being dissolved… though there is always the danger that new chains come in different guises.

If nothing else this is a time to be alert and awake to our experiences and choices.

Perceptions are changing, tolerance is too. As we become more conscious of our physical bodies and how they connect with our feelings, emotions, subtle bodies, and bio- energetic field- in short, our soul- we are being called to face the shadow.

What at one time would have been the norm is increasingly unable to go unchallenged as our individual vibration changes. The structures that kept the old stagnant ways in place are beginning to dissolve also on the individual level. Many people are breaking down.

We have not had a fully conscious, fully spiritualized, fully embodied sexuality on the planet for a very long time, maybe since the days of the sacred sexual temple priestesses. Maybe Mars (in his shadow warrior aspect) is laying once again in the temple of the Goddess.

Leo: Sourcing Light

Leo by Artanjo Zodiac-Art

As we’re bathing in the Leo energies- or wrestling with them. Now is a great time to consider how to express yourself into the world and shine your light. Follow the lion to unlock your creative potential, strength, or connect with your soul’s longing… maybe even purpose.

Astrology is an excellent resource which can reveal so much when we open to working with it in an intuitive way.

When helping someone to explore their soul’s calling, career path, sacred vocation, or where the energy is flowing there are a few points that I use- the nodes of the moon, the meridian Sun midpoint, Vesta, and of course the Sun.

From now until 22 August I am offering “Sourcing Light” readings at 20% discount.

Please contact me to arrange your slot.