Mars Meets Kaali: On Masculine Sexuality- Leo New Moon Part 2.

Image- John the Baptist 1602 by Caravaggio

Image- John the Baptist 1602 by Caravaggio

In the last new moon chart (28th July) Mars, Chiron, asteroid Kaali, and Uranus formed a stellium at the mid points of Taurus- Mars was at 15 degrees which is the point of the astrological Beltane.

To me this was a signifier that sexuality, and particularly masculine sexuality is being reviewed and transformed. This will continue through this lunar cycle and well beyond.

Mars is our sexuality and libido, passion, action, drive, and generative energy. Chiron, the wound is right next to Mars and highlights the wound associated with masculinity- in this relationship Chiron also offers healing and the potential for transmutation of wounded masculine energy.

Asteroid Kaali is a powerhouse supercharging anything she touches and is also connected with kundalini; Kali is the slayer of ego and all that no longer serves in aligning with our authentic selves. Asteroid Kaali points to radical transformation.

Uranus is also transformation and is connected with electricity, light, liberation, awakening… and kundalini.

That these powers are grouped together and have merged at the point of astrological Beltane is suggestive of a transformation occurring in our individual and collective psyche and bio-energy field around sexuality, particularly masculine sexuality…though in the new moon chart feminine sexuality is also highlighted in the Venus, Lilith, Hades conjunction.

Looking back at what was happening for you on or around the time of Beltane could shed some light on how these energies are operating in your life.

I am delighted that in my practice I am beginning to work with more men, and in my personal life I am meeting more men too, sometimes in random and magical ways. In these encounters it feels as if we have something to offer each other beyond the bounds of conventional man/woman relationship. These relationships are not sexual although there is a space, a very tentative and beautiful one that opens up for discussion around sexuality, embodiment, feelings, shadow, and accountability.

In the necessary shaking out of the old dusty blanket of human sexuality what has been hidden is revealed and it becomes clear that reality has been operating at two levels- what is shown and what is not. This splitting of reality creates a cognitive dissonance that shows up in the individual and collective psyche. It is this that is potentially being healed.

While a good dose of Uranian light circulates through old stagnant spaces, and Pluto prepares to dust himself down after his shift in Capricorn, things are opening out. As Pluto moves into airy Aquarius, we will experience a whole new vibe… maybe to do with the shadow side of technology.

As Pluto moved through Capricorn, we witnessed many esteemed persons exposed as leading a double life- the public persona and the private reality. Many of us have been disturbed to learn how the establishment prepared, and even protected the ground for these indiscretions to occur.

We have witnessed the MeToo campaign, had discussions around toxic masculinity, challenged pornography, or at least opened a discussion about the implications of porn, and at a very fundamental level have questioned our ideas, attitudes, and beliefs around gender.

Relationships that are abusive, raping (in whatever way you choose to see that), toxic, narcissistic, and exploitative continue to be explored in the wider social arena- this could enable a victim mentality or empower us to take responsibility for ourselves.

The kundalini is rising; the chains that have bound humanity particularly through sexuality are potentially being dissolved… though there is always the danger that new chains come in different guises.

If nothing else this is a time to be alert and awake to our experiences and choices.

Perceptions are changing, tolerance is too. As we become more conscious of our physical bodies and how they connect with our feelings, emotions, subtle bodies, and bio- energetic field- in short, our soul- we are being called to face the shadow.

What at one time would have been the norm is increasingly unable to go unchallenged as our individual vibration changes. The structures that kept the old stagnant ways in place are beginning to dissolve also on the individual level. Many people are breaking down.

We have not had a fully conscious, fully spiritualized, fully embodied sexuality on the planet for a very long time, maybe since the days of the sacred sexual temple priestesses. Maybe Mars (in his shadow warrior aspect) is laying once again in the temple of the Goddess.

Leo: Sourcing Light

Leo by Artanjo Zodiac-Art

As we’re bathing in the Leo energies- or wrestling with them. Now is a great time to consider how to express yourself into the world and shine your light. Follow the lion to unlock your creative potential, strength, or connect with your soul’s longing… maybe even purpose.

Astrology is an excellent resource which can reveal so much when we open to working with it in an intuitive way.

When helping someone to explore their soul’s calling, career path, sacred vocation, or where the energy is flowing there are a few points that I use- the nodes of the moon, the meridian Sun midpoint, Vesta, and of course the Sun.

From now until 22 August I am offering “Sourcing Light” readings at 20% discount.

Please contact me to arrange your slot.

 

Leo Reflections- New Moon- 28th July, 2022

La forza (the force”) by Boris Indrikov

La forza (the force”) by Boris Indrikov

At times I am despondent, isolated, alone, feeling as though I cannot connect, that I am misunderstood. I knew this would not be easy this “standing up to be counted” (I’ve got a Chiron Mars thing going on).

Sometimes, I see and feel things and I want to take a position of authority, as though I know, and that my truth is right- so strongly do I feel this truth in my soul.

I see a new world emerging, a ‘brave new world’, but I also see beneath the surface of things- it is both a blessing and a curse. I say what I see and feel and yet I am also humble enough to know that what I see and feel comes through me, through my soul, and maybe it is my role- or one of them- to speak what comes through me or maybe I am deluded and have much to learn. At any rate I am a vibrational manifestation as every other person is too and If I can accept that in myself without judgment (which is not easy) then I can also accept it in others even if I do not agree with them or like their vibration; even if I see and feel that they are headed down a path I myself have chosen to avoid (or so I think).

I do not embrace our journey into AI, our entrenchment deeper into materialism while flying the flag of spiritualism, or bio- chemical manipulation and sometimes I want to call out… “welcome to your false awakening, humans”. I can see that we are careering down a path of greater dependency on technology, on the need to make money, to be a name, to be bright and shiny, to be healed and fixed from the weight and burden of the human condition (to bypass). I see that and yet I could only ever criticize another soul if I thought I alone could see the full picture, that I had the privilege of knowing the whole story, but I know that is not the case, I am one of billions of souls currently incarnate on this planet- I seek to find my most authentic self for better or worse. I try to stick with it even though I don’t always appear the successful one, or the bright shiny healed one. But this is what I can do, it is what I have right now.

Yes, I believe I can see behind the veil at times but like the grail the veil is different for everyone and that is because we are each on our own soul odyssey, all at different stages of our evolution just like the Earth herself… and maybe the gods too.

I study the mysteries, but I do not know the mystery and mainly I am just trying to unravel the mystery of myself.

What is the point of this post? My point is that you can never know the soul of another person, heck, it is likely you barely know your own. I am no authority, none of us are, so live let and let live. If we are affected by the vibration or expression of another person, it is to reflect something back at ourselves.

That said, speak out what you see, share your journey if you are called to but don’t expect anything in return… though I personally applaud anyone who does step out of the box and show themselves. It seems clear to me that when we do that we sometimes -and if we are lucky often – move something in others whether that is triggering or inspiring- either way it shifts things, and this is a time of great shifts.

We’re all just doing and being what we know how with what we’ve got in this moment. The bigger picture is still unravelling and may or may not ever be known.

Maybe self sovereignty is simply taking responsibility for who we are in each moment.

New Moon in Leo: Sex- where the darkness (and light) enter.

A blog in two parts.

Image of the author- "chiaroscuro"

Image of the author- “chiaroscuro”

New Moon- Thursday 28th July 2022, 6.55 pm BST

The title of this blog comes from a dream I had where I heard the words “sex is where the darkness gets in.” In my journey with my own sexuality, sexual wounding, and sexual healing I know this to be true. I also know that sex is where the light gets in. The need to understand this paradox is a crucial factor in our human evolution.

This new lunar cycle is inviting us deeper into the mystery of sex and reproduction.

Healing takes place in the heart centre where the forces from above blend with the forces from below uniting our animal and divine nature. In astrology Leo is the heart of the zodiac and the seat of the Sun- our consciousness. Leo is also where we rise in our regal or crowned expression and where we become sovereign of our own domain.

At the point of the new lunar cycle the Sun and Moon are at 5 °Leo.

The invitation is to come into our heart and consider our sexuality, masculine feminine intimate partnership relationships, archetypal masculine and feminine expressions in our culture.

These reflections are based on two points of the new moon chart which I will write about in two parts. One is a Venus, Lilith, Hades stellium in Moon ruled Cancer, and the other focuses on a Mars, North Node, Kaali, Uranus stellium in Venus ruled Taurus.

The data-

Venus 12’55 Cancer- Hades 11’49 Cancer- Lilith (true) 13’36 Cancer- Lilith (mean) 8’11 Cancer.

Mars 15’57 Taurus- NN 18’28 Taurus- Uranus 18’37 Taurus- Kaali 17’ 8 Taurus.

Venus, Lilith, and Hades in Cancer opens a portal that is neither easy nor desirable to look at. Hades is a hypothetical planet referred to as a trans-Neptunian point in Uranian astrology. To know Hades is to know death.

In Greek mythology Hades rules the underworld, he was also known as ‘Plouton’, the Romans pluralized it to Pluton/Pluto which means giver of wealth. In terms of our soul journey the wealth is an enrichment and freeing of the soul in bondage to the material world.

The symbol for Hades is a crescent moon with a cross inside it suggestive of the emotional wounds and weighty issues concerning the interface of the material and spiritual worlds, representing our cross to bear. Although depicted as male, in earlier mythology Hades was associated with the goddess and her transformative powers of death and renewal. The serpent or the dragon became a symbol of the transformative feminine energy of the Moon and harkens back to a time before the patriarchal takeover of the goddess. An example of this can be seen in the myth of the python under the temple at Delphi, placed by Gaia to protect the sacred oracle before Apollo co-opted the site.

Hades Symbol

Hades Symbol

The Moon is a symbol of transformation and is connected to our feeling and emotional bodies.

Unresolved trauma or unacknowledged experiences that have affected us and operate in our unconscious show up in our physical and energetic bodies as blockages and distortions often leading to disease. The Hades journey then is one where we make a descent in order to illuminate and ultimately free what is trapped there. 

In the new moon chart, Hades is with Venus and Lilith (mean and true); both Venus and Lilith are connected to female sexuality. Arising from the centre of the feminine blueprint or mandala is Venus Aphrodite, core essence of the feminine nature in her manifest form. According to Demetra George, Venus is the primary potential of fertilization and transformation symbolized as cyclical possibilities in the moon as an activated and vital force. Because she is the source of reproductive energy Empedocles calls her the giver of life. She is the first manifestation of lunar energy.

This new moon is an invitation to consider reproduction and fertility and reflect on our current attitudes to female (and male) sexuality; to consider how the waters of life in the birth canal are flowing -or not- in our individual and collective story.

Some of us feel that we- along with the whole of humanity- are undergoing a rebirth; it goes without saying that birth is a crucial time, a time to stay as present as possible and try to see the whole picture even while so much of the process happens internally.

Venus is also the magnetic force that activates sexual energy.

Our use of sexual energy and sexuality in our culture now and far back into the past has become distorted and vulnerable to manipulation… “sex is where the darkness enters.”

So often we are raised in environments where we are cut off from the root of our sexual essence thus becoming unconscious to its precious and subtle vibration, our sexual power, and correct use of sexual energy. Pornography, over sexualisation, rape culture, institutionalised abuse, alongside the commodification of sexuality, sexuality as a weapon, and no real education or awareness as to the true nature and energetic purpose of our sexuality has led to sexual distortion and corruption.

Enter Lilith, the other archetype in the new moon triune alongside Venus and Hades. In the myth of Lilith which I have written about previously, we see the unacceptable face of the feminine being banished, exiled, demonised and punished. A journey to Hades to see what lies beneath this entrenched fear of the feminine is an invitation of this lunar cycle.

Distortion of sexuality leading to emotional wounding for both men and women, create energetic blockages in the system in the human matrix. We have been living with the consequences of this for a very long time; we have skirted around the edges but somehow, we have become blindsided to the truth of our sexuality and how it has been used against us.

Beneath the veil of the silver screen and the Neptunian illusions of sexual freedom, allure, and desire, there are untold, unknown, stories hidden in the dankest corners of Hades replayed throughout time in the lives of semi or unconscious souls lost to societal conditioning and priming.

As I write this I think of the allegory of Plato’s cave where a population of sleeping citizens are held in an underworld not realising that anything lies beyond. Because they do not know they are trapped they do not feel the need for freedom or personal liberation.

The sabian symbol for the Sun/Moon point is-

PHASE 126 (LEO 6°): A CONSERVATIVE, OLD-FASHIONED LADY IS CONFRONTED BY A “HIPPIE” GIRL.

KEYNOTE: The need to transcend our subservience to fashion, in morals as well as in clothes.

We are dealing now with cultural values and the emotional impact they have upon our character formation… the sixth degree refers to a collective, cultural, and social crisis which challenges us to realize THE RELATIVITY OF SOCIAL VALUES.

The war on sexuality and reproduction, particularly female sexuality and reproduction continues on the societal, emotional, economic, and astral battlefields. From abortion rights; menstrual suppression; epidemic proportion of reproductive pathology; sexual violence & humiliation; a legal system that does not protect; and economic systems that entrap, it is clear we have a long way to go in the plight for true sexual and reproductive liberation or in other words to claim these things as our own.

Referring back to the sabian symbol: A CONSERVATIVE, OLD-FASHIONED LADY IS CONFRONTED BY A “HIPPIE” GIRL, is suggestive of the sexual revolution of the 1960’s where free love paved the way for widespread availability of the pill and made abortion legally available under the Abortion Act of 1967, coming into effect in April 1968.

Was it really freedom?

The desire to shake off the oppressive shackles of a conservative morality that seemed to hamper individual freedom of expression and choice likely came from an innocent place- the individual and collective soul seeking to evolve and experience more of life. In reality, as with many things that are presented in this way, what we see at face value is not always the full picture and hidden powers are apt to influence for reasons unknown.

I won’t engage in the current debate on abortion here, to my mind it is simply too complex and there are simply too many unseen or unacknowledged factors at work. Realising the cost of gynaecological medical procedures on not just a woman’s body but also her soul and connection beyond the material world needs to be explored from a holistic and much deeper perspective than it currently has been.

The illusion of freedom is far more available than the reality of freedom.

The new Moon sabian symbol challenges us to realize THE RELATIVITY OF SOCIAL VALUES.

Social values are relative because the consciousness which attempts to spearhead them are subject to change. They are also subject to corruption, ego led impulses, desire for power, and a lack of heart based or soul flowing influence.

Much of the work of Carl Jung is concerned with the individuation process which involves an individual breaking from the group or common consensuses in order to realise and express his or her true self. In his personal descent and confrontation with the unconscious Jung refers to two powerful and often conflicting energies which he called ‘the spirit of the depths’ and ‘the spirit of the times’. If only influenced by the spirit of the times, we factor our life energy to external agents who may or may not be concerned with our wellbeing. The spirit of the depths then -of which I would say Hades is a part -is where we must turn our attentions in the pursuit of soul making or freeing ourselves from the cave. Being able to negotiate both polarities is advisable.

And yet so many of us for so long have placed our trust and faith in the social values of our time even while they often prove to be stitched from ineffective or flawed materials that tear and rip leaving an insubstantial societal fabric.

Many of the social values we have dutifully lived by have not been friendly to women or the feminine. Some call this patriarchy, and it is also noted that this system has not necessarily been friendly to men either, but patriarchy was never about men and women.

Anything to do with female sexuality and female reproduction is not only a loaded topic but is one of the most loaded and controversial topics known to us at this time in our human story. We need to ask why that is.

If we are too easily swayed by what media and culture present as positive and freedom enhancing advances, or correct moral opinion in our cultural history we miss the nuances of the deeper strata- the spirit of the depths.

Dare we enter Hades?

Hades is bordered by five rivers – the Styx, Lethe, Acheron, Phlegethon and Cocytus; these rivers can also be perceived by the living and are passages between the living and the dead. The river Lethe is the river of forgetfulness named after the goddess of oblivion and forgetfulness, Lethe. On drinking the water from the river, one completely forgets their past life and is prepared for reincarnation.

Reincarnation in a psychological sense is the repeating of old patterns, beliefs and attitudes that keep is trapped in a loop of semi consciousness, or with the shades, only half alive.

In psychological terms we might use the topography of the underworld to reference our cultural miasma where we easily forget the sins of the past. Social values encourage us not to ask too many questions, a reality that has taken deeper root in recent times with the censoring of information that does not accord with the dominant cultural narrative. Lilith asks the questions.

Lilith who has consciously chosen to stay outwith the bounds of social values and morality continues to communicate to us through channels that have not been hi-jacked by the socially conditioned mind. We feel her in our bodies; she urges us to stay as natural and as life filled (organic) as possible so that we may know her.

I have written about the medication and bio medicalisation of women’s bodies and the inherent dangers of this not only on a biological level but also on a soul level, and a bio mystical level (a term borrowed from John Lash).

The medicalisation of women’s bodies, sexuality, and reproduction is a shady stream; the history of gynaecology, a few layers down, is a chilling testament to a darkly misogynist past where it could be argued the roots still flourish.

The feminine divine and her archetypes is concerned with the liberation of the personal and eternal soul. She comes to us as Sophia, Lilith, Kali, Magdalene, Inanna. She is rising and her voice is getting louder. She travels between the Pleroma, Earth, and Hades. She is everywhere ever present in every atom and cell. She will walk with us to Hades and back.

On waking from our forgetfulness, we free ourselves from the liminal space between the living and the dead and are renewed… but first we must learn how to die to the false self before we can rise. I do not mean to imply that this is easy, believe me when I say I am finding my way, sometimes lost, sometimes found, sometimes asleep, sometimes awake… like so many of us. We need to remind each other.

The Orphic mysteries introduce the existence of another river, the Mnemosyne which allows full remembrance of one’s life. Followers of Orphism were buried with gold-leaved tablets providing instructions on how to travel through death and obtain omniscience. Consciousness through the death process is also part of Tibetan, Celtic, and Native American cosmology.

This is chance to break the patterns and free ourselves from karmic cycles.

The invitation is to wake up and remember the true nature of our sexuality and feminine essence, and to protect it from forces that would assign it to the underworld.

In part two of this blog, I explore masculine sexuality in light of the new moon.

 

Chiron goes retrograde- “What ails thee?”

The Fisher King by Leonora Carrington, 1961

The Fisher King by Leonora Carrington.

Yesterday I wrote about the Grail, about connecting with our uniqueness on our journey toward individuation or soul making. Our uniqueness is a blend of our gifts, talents, wounds, and woes…

Chiron teaches us to recognise that our wounds may also be our greatest gifts.

When Chiron goes retrograde- as it does from today until mid-December- our core wounds may be felt more acutely however the opportunity is to discover new ways to transform them.

Archetypally Chiron can be explored through the myth of the Fisher King from the Grail legends- while the king is wounded the land lays in waste; redemption comes when Parzival, the young knight finally has the nous to ask the question, “what ails thee”. Failing to ask this question prevents healing of the wounded King and the wasteland. Asking the question requires nothing less than absolute willingness to face the truth.

In terms of psychology asking ourselves that same question “what ails thee” is the key to our healing. Chiron asks us to face our deepest pain so that we might know it. Knowing it is not necessarily the same as healing it, rather Chiron encourages us to transmute the wound so that we are no longer disabled by it… and then claim it as a power.

Chiron teaches us to not only bear our cross but in doing so to help others to overcome their own afflictions by being a living light in the face of adversity. In this way Chiron as the Shaman archetype is often equated with Christ.

In the gospel of St. Luke, Jesus says,

“Whosoever does not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple.

In the Chiron journey of reclamation, we become our own hero or heroine. Once we have reclaimed ourselves, we let go of the people, situations, circumstances, limitations, and voices of contempt that rejected, disrespected, or tried to change us, and stand firm in the truth of who we are. Or we develop a new relationship with them.

I am available for astrology consultations to explore how Chiron operates in your chart/life.

The Royal Road & the Holy Grail… a post inspired by dreams.

Dante_Gabriel_Rossetti_-_The_Damsel_of_the_Sanct_Grael_(1874)

Dante Gabriel Rossetti – The Damsel of the Sanct Grael (1874)

Dreams said Freud are the royal road to the unconscious, while for Jung dreams- perhaps above all else- are the psyche’s way of communicating valuable information.

Our dreams are the bridge between the conscious and unconscious mind; our bridge is not the same as anyone else’s, it is the path to our very own Grail castle and offers the possibility of the elixir that will nourish our soul.

The way we can share this gift is by becoming the unique individual that we are meant to be.

Therapies, modalities, templates, theories, religions, and teachings that do not consider the individual soul can lead us only so far… at a certain point we are on our own.

Jung says “…anyone who attempts to do both, to adjust to his group and at the same time pursue his individual goal, becomes neurotic.”

It’s a fine balance. It has never been an easy path to be true to oneself and find a way of living in the world with integrity however now more than ever the world needs individuals who live by their unique soul’s code.

The journey of soul making is a subtle interplay of inner and outer conditions encompassing the irrational and the daimonic while appreciating the interconnectedness, or synchronicity, of seemingly unrelated events.

For Jung this is the process of individuation and for Mythologist Joseph Campbell it is the Hero’s Journey.

According to Russian mystic and spiritual teacher Gurdjieff, we are born only with the potential for a soul, it is not a guarantee that we will attain a soul- a fully articulated vehicle of consciousness connecting the body directly with the sources of its creation.

For Gurdjieff, developing a soul is very difficult and can only be brought to fruition directly within the conditions of our own life.

This is the Way of the Grail.

Consider that your uniqueness is a subtle tapestry woven from all your life circumstances, your inner disposition and sensitivities, the place you were born, the era and the family you were born into, as well as all of the encounters you have experienced …everything in fact that makes you you.

This is the prima materia of your soul.

When we accept that everything we have experienced up to this point has been necessary to create the individual soul that we are we can no longer be a victim.

Trusting and surrendering to this requires Faith.

Jung says the key is this: we must be able to let things happen in the psyche.

Paying attention to dreams is an excellent way of soul making.

Full Moon Magic- Magdalene Speaks.

Image- Me on pilgrimage in the Crypt of Abbaye Sainte-Marie-Madeleine de Vézelay where relics of Saint Mary Magdalene are housed.

Image- Me on pilgrimage in the crypt of Abbaye Sainte-Marie-Madeleine de Vézelay where relics of Saint Mary Magdalene are allegedly housed.

Teachings for our time- Magdalene as a bio mystical experience that opens the door to both receiving and transmitting information through the subtle bodies, or in other words, as a connector of the human and divine.

At a time when our physical bodies are potentially compromised by so many interferences, Magdalene- or the vibrational manifestation of Magdalene- encourages us to protect our physical body and build our light body (Merkabah) so that we do not become disconnected from Source.

She reminds us of the gnostic teachings- that the Kingdom of God is within.

At the point of the full moon asteroid Magdalena is conjunct the Galactic Centre at 26 ° Sagittarius. Symbolically, this could be seen as a time when Magdalene’s emanation is strong and available to the human sphere.

For the Maya, the Galactic Centre was the supreme godhead and ultimate creator which they named “Hunab Ku;” for them it was a portal to other galaxies and the consciousness that organizes all matter from a whirling disk into stars, planets, and solar systems. Burst of energy from the Galactic Centre- the cosmic womb- is the portal through which the creator orchestrates the unfolding of our galaxy.

As Mistress of the Waters, Magdalene offers a regenerative and restorative balm for the human soul.

Whether you believe Her to be one woman from the life of Jesus of Nazareth or representative of the priestess archetype, or indeed an archetype at the core of every human being, The Magdalene is calling us to wake up and claim our human divine nature.

Through the portal of her womb- the Holy Vessel- the vas uterus- she leads us to the eternal spring (or grail) by strengthening our connection to Spirit. Through her sacred oils, holy blood, and gnosis of the human body as Temple of the Soul, She awakens us to gnostic revelation- unmediated knowledge and direct experience of god.

Through sacred feminine gnosis- now mostly lost and suppressed along with other gnostic and “heretical” teachings- Magdalene offers the promise of liberation through awakening us into our true nature. As protectress of the lost teachings She points to where they may be found.

If Christ the Son is pointing to God the Father, Magdalene is pointing to Sophia, the Holy One within.

Magdalene’s Feast day is celebrated on July 22.