This morning I gave a talk on Vesta, during our discussion topics included women’s sexuality, control of women’s sexuality, the monetisation of women’s bodies, prostitution, and sacred sexuality. It was a rich exploration.
I presented a few charts of famous people with a prominent Vesta signature including Marilyn Monroe who had Vesta conjunct her North node in the 12 house- a hidden and unconscious Vesta. We talked about the gap between the image of Marilyn that was presented to the world- sex goddess-the epitome of feminine allure- the somewhat child like quality, and the reality that was being played out behind the curtain of the silver screen where she was handled, controlled, abused, and exploited.
Not long after finishing the talk I saw a post on the Britney Spears court hearing about conservatorship that took place on Wednesday (23 June). Britney who has been under conservatorship for the past 13 years said, “I am not happy, I can’t sleep. I’m so angry, it’s insane. And I’m depressed,”.
“The last time I spoke to you [the judge] … made me feel like I was dead. I am telling you again because I am not lying … so maybe you can understand the depth and the degree and the damages … I deserve changes.”
Britney’s Vesta is a 3 Sagittarius closely conjunct Uranus at 2 Sagittarius, her very public breakdown in 2007 was in fact a Uranian breakthrough, a Kaliesque rage against her controllers, and an absolute expression of the fierce feminine who has been too long stuffed in a gilded cage… all with the utter focus and single pointed energy of Vesta. It was a holy act. It passed, she was drugged, incarcerated, and put under conservatorship… but Uranus will not be tamed (even while Vesta might be at least temporarily)… once sacred sexual priestesses, the Vestas were finally owned by the chief priest (pontifex maximus) in ancient Rome. Vesta energy may be repressed but Uranus will not be.
At the time of Britney’s court hearing-transiting Vesta was conjunct and activating Britney’s Mars… “I’m so angry it’s insane”.
In Rome, the Vestal Virgins were afforded many privileges unknown to other women of the time such as owning their own property upon retirement. During service, their every need was catered for… but they were not free, and any transgression of their vows could lead to a horrific death such as being buried alive.
Until her breakdown/breakthrough Britney appeared to have it all, fame fortune, youth, beauty… but none of these things belonged to her. Every aspect of her body and mind was controlled and owned and like Marilyn before her she was denied access to her own money while generating a fortune for the industry.
Under conservatorship Britney is denied motherhood and marriage; while it was not widely reported Marilyn Monroe likewise was forbidden to have any children and there is a rumour that she did in fact give birth to a child but that it was taken from her, as well as having miscarriages. The Virgin and the whore shall ever be separate in the hands of the shadow patriarchy who have a vested interested in keeping it so because to integrate sexuality and spirituality (especially female sexulaity), the sacred and profane is a dangerous and threatening cocktail to those who prefer their woman compliant, subservient, easily manipulated, child-like, and with limited power.
I have been feeling the rise of Vesta in the collective for some time- one of the things that will be unveiled, revealed, and strongly challenged I feel is around issue of women’s sexuality, control of women’s bodies and minds, financial exploitation of women, and well, a whole manner of things pertaining to the sexual life of adult women a territory which the father of psychoanalysis Sigmund Freud refers to as a ‘dark continent’.